Lately I have been so overwhelmed emotionally with what I have seen on my feeds. Specifically everything that has to do with children and the horrific stories of what is happening to them in our very own country. It has caused me to not want to go anywhere by myself with the boys. I have literally imagined what I would do if someone tried to grab one of my kids while we were out. I have vividly envisioned what I would do first and my best options to be able to get away without losing one of them to these monsters. That is how bad it has gotten. No, it’s not every day but more days than not. And honestly, I am so tired of living in the wrong kind of fear. I am exhausted from allowing the enemy to rob me of the happiness God has already given me.
When you look up the definition of fear, this is what is states; “An unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.” Which is true to what I have been feeling lately. I fear going out because I am afraid of something dangerous or painful happening to my boys. I fear the worst and am no longer confident in doing my everyday errands or trips to a park because I am currently CHOOSING to live in this fear. Yes, choosing. I have been given choice everyday since I have began to feel this way and I have sheepishly chosen to live scared and paranoid instead of clinging to the Lord and FEARING Him!
Which brings me to my next fear. Fear in Hebrew, specifically Proverbs 9:10, “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom.” translates; “fear of God; Reverence; Respect; Piety. This is the fear I need to be choosing. This is the fear I need to be living moment by moment in. This is the ONLY fear that I can allow to have a place in my life. It’s the only fear that MUST HAVE A PLACE IN MY LIFE.
Have you ever heard the saying “Fear is crippling”? If not, now you have. I have heard many sayings and this one I can honestly say is truer than true. The more we allow the wrong fear into our lives, the more authority we are willingly handing over to the enemy. He will continue to move his way into your life and begin to instill fear not only into a few things but EVERYTHING. He will penetrate your life with so much fear that you will cripple under his lies and slowly start to fade instead of living. A LIFE LIVED IN FEAR IS NOT A LIFE LIVED. Say that again, A LIFE LIVED IN FEAR IS NOT A LIFE LIVED.
“You will show me the path of life;
In Your presence is fullness of joy;
At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.”
In this specific verse, “life” is Chay in Hebrew. Chay literally means; living, alive; green (of vegetation); flowing, fresh (of water); lively, active (of man); reviving (of the springtime). How can we expect for our lives to be any of those things if we continue to live in the wrong fear?? We cannot. And we will absolutely not experience all that God has to offer us if we continue to live our lives in fear every time we read those headlines on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and whatever else you may have. I am not saying we disregard what we see and pretend it’s not there. I am saying we need to take what we see and PRAY! We take those fearful thoughts and hold them captive. We throw them into God’s hands and admit that we cannot handle what is going on in this world. We fall to our knees and cry out to our Father in heaven, asking for HIS PROTECTION over our children.
That is how you live a life worth living.
You give it all back to the One who gave your life existence to begin with.
“And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. But rather fear Him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.” Matthew 10:28