Choosing to do the right thing isn’t always easy, but it is much easier than giving your life for the wrong thing…
There are so many times in life that you have to face the realities you hoped would never come your way. You make decisions that lead up to hardships and you begin to question if it was the right decision in the first place. One lesson I have been learning over and over again is to rely on God completely, especially in the midst of trial and tribulation. You literally have to die to yourself, your fleshly desires and all the things you think you need but you really don’t. To live life in fear is to live life proclaiming that God is not big enough to defend you, comfort you, lead you out of the fire or even provide exactly what it is you need. Recently in my life I have had to repeat the very beginnings of this lesson over and over again. It’s like right when I start to feel the same motions from the week before or even days before I shut down. “No thanks Lord, I already know this one, I don’t need to go through it again.” and I can just hear Him saying, “Oh my daughter, then why have you not grasped what I have told you? Why do you continue to try and avoid what I have already prepared you for?” I then it hits me. My heart breaks and I ask myself the same questions. It is just far easier to ignore the truth than to have to actually put in practice what God has called you to. My husband is truly an encouragement to me in this area. Every morning he gets up (way to early) and puts his work clothes on, washes his face, brushes them teeth and heads out before the light even breaks through. He has been working anywhere from 10-12 hour days, sometimes those can turn into 14 hours. He does not get the luxury of working inside a fresh cooled office or building with a huge fan to shed some type of breeze on him and his fellow employees. Instead he gets to work outside under the blazing sun or a building that is still in the process of getting built. (He is in the business of contracting if that helps.) I know he is not the only one and I very well understand people may have even harder jobs or longer work days. But I share this because it speaks volumes to me. Chance, (my boo thang) has never really worked like this before, let alone in this field. Regardless of how badly my husband would like to change jobs he accepts where he is and thanks God for a steady income. Somedays I look at him and it’s as if I can feel his true feelings about the work day and I so wish I can change that. But I can’t. And the more I try to make him feel better….well you know how that can turn out. I guess it is one of those “Just leave it alone please, I’ll be fine” type of situations. And I know he will be. I know that at the right time our God will provide not only a better job but a better work environment as well. Chance, wether he knows it or not chooses to die to himself every morning. He chooses to get up, work and does what needs to be done to provide for our family. I am so thankful that he is willing and God uses him to remind me that it might not always be the job we want, the house we dreamt of or even the finances we hoped for. But it will always be God’s will, His plan and the path He led us down for a specific reason. It is not our job to know all the answers or even the littlest of details, but to honor our Savior by living a godly life no matter where we are. No matter what we are facing. Yes I know, it is always easier said than done but God isn’t asking us to go up on that cross for the world. He is simply just asking for us to murder of our flesh moment by moment so He can continue to prune us, refine us and mold us into who He created us to be. Which is so much more than we are now. So God I pray that that we would choose to live a life pleasing to you. That we, as your children choose to honor you in all that we do and die to ourselves daily. Lord I pray that if there is anyone in the same situation You would speak to them and remind them that what we do down here, we are doing for You. May we choose to murder our fleshly desires before we even think about dishonoring the plans You have set before us. Abba, take back any part of our lives that we may think we have control over and help us lay it all back at Your feet. Have Your way Abba. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.